4 months to go...well 116 days

Again I know, I know I have been extrememly slack on the posting this last month. I don't know how people have time to do it everyday? I know I used to, but thats because I had all this spare time on the train!

The week has finally arrived for my Best Friend! I cant believe she gets married in just 4 days! Lets just hope the weather improves because at the moment it appears like it is going to rain all day. Although I am not worried because these things always work out and I believe she will have a stunning first day summer!

So her day is all planned now, and I can't wait for Thursday because thats when I get to get involved, its rehearsal dinner time, and then the next day is pamper time with nails and a spray tan! I am so excited!!!

So where am I with my wedding? Well everything is pretty much organised now, I do have to meet with the florist to confirm the flowers, I have to confirm our vows with the celebrant and our song list with the DJ, and hold hair and make-up trials. Other than that its a lot of date and time confirming and invoice paying.

Life is getting really busy though, working two jobs is hard. I dont know how people do it, I work 50 hour weeks at my career job, and 16 at my on the side gig, and I must say when you combine 66 hours of work with 3 weddings, netball, a fiance and friends, life gets extremely busy, but I am enjoying it, and the extra work has meant I havent had to use the credit card for all the extras that come along with a wedding.

So for all you wedding planners, where are you up to? How many days are left until you big day? Also if you havent already, join up to pinterest! So many fantastic ideas!

Have a good one all xxx

5 months to go...

Yes, its been a whole month since I have last posted. And its because its been hectic in all aspects of my life!!!

I have started my second job, working an extra 12-16 hours a week to make some bucks for the wedding, anything in order to limit the amount of debt that we will have on the other side. Although I dont think any of the money has actually gone to the wedding yet. Its all gone on bills, gotta love home insurance, car rego and electricity bills ey? O and dont forget the stupid ATO.

Anyways, other than that I have been playing netball two nights a week, which I have really been enjoying! I have been using it as a great way to get some fitness back and also to practice my goaling!

I had my hens day! And it was a massive success! The day was beautiful and sunny! My most amazing friends came to share the day with me, and the day ran smoothly and exactly what I would have imagined my hens day to be like!

We have also picked up bridesmaid dresses now! woohoo!!! They are the perfect colour and exactly what I had imagined!

We are currently in the process of getting addresses for the wedding invites to make sure they are printed and recieved by Christmas! The scary thing is we have to send them out just after new years, in order to give people 6 weeks to RSVP, because we haven't sent out save the dates we have decided to send out our invitations a little earlier.

So whats the go for the rest of October and November! I'll tell you know its crazy! Maybe sometime I will get a day to relax....but not counting on it!

This week, I have two games of netball, two audits at work work, 3 nights of other work, an engagement party, a lunch with friends

The following week again, I have two games of netball, 2 nights of work, dress fitting for my lovely bestie! And at this stage a free Saturday night! Hopefully which I can spend making up place cards for the wedding!!!!

Then its Melbourne Cup long weekend! Well I plan for it to be a long weekend anyways....I am going to have Monday and Tuesday off which will be good for some more placecard making!!! Then just more working!!!! Followed by my friends Bridal Shower on the weekend!!!! Yay cant wait for some relaxing girl time!

Long and behikd then its the 18th of November already! Of course more netball and more work! But thankfully this time, a spare weekend again! A rest weekend hopefully hahah!!!

Because the next weekend its hens day for my bestie!!!! Obviously more work and netball haha!!!!! Then we go into full wedding fun, of tans, rehearsals, nails and pampering, getting ready for December 1!!!

CAN NOT WAIT!

6 months to go....

Sooooo there is only 6 months to go now, seriously where does the time go? Not that I am complaining, because I can't wait to be married!!!! So whats been going on? I have been on heaps more training days for work, netball trip has been and gone, been working hard, helped a friend address her wedding invitations today!!! Not long for her big day now!!!

Well I haven't posted for a few days, or probably even over a week now!! As far as being healthier is concerned I am doing a bit better, except for having a stupid cold. I am maintaining my reduced weight, but wouldn't mind losing a few more kilo's. So what are my rules? I have cut out chocolate which was biggest vice, I'd eat about 3 blocks a week...and I am not eating after 8pm, I am trying to be in bed by 9pm, and trying to go for walks when the weather and time permits.

So whats the go for this week! I have to get stuck into my internal audit at work, Going to be a massive job! A friend of mine is booked in to have her baby, which is pretty dam exciting! Then next weekend is GRAND FINAL!!!! I love grand final, and even though my amazing boys didnt quite make it this year, it will be nice to enjoy the week and not be stressing about it the whole time, so my favourite week of the year is about to begin, with tomorrow night with brownlow night!!! Then after grand final, I am spoiling the fiance for his bday and then sunday is presentation day, and I get my trophy for runners-up best and fairest! I've never had a trophy before, so I am pretty excited!

Then somehow its October!!!!! Kicking it off with Kelly Clarkson concert woohoo!!!Then I start my second job at the end of the week! Hopefully it will all work out and some extra money will do the trick with the wedding!!! Then I have my hens day at the races which I am really looking forward too, Then I can finalise the guest list and order the invitations!!!

September!

I love September, the weather starts to improve, we get that little glimpse of hope that summer is coming, I dont know if its just me but I am over being cold. I also love that September brings netball and footy finals, nothing better than seeing your team, or any team for that matter achieving there dreams.

Anyways so as you can probably tell after the weekend I am feeling a lot better, I have put all the crap behind me and I am moving forward! I think this week is going to move forward pretty quickly too, Dinner at the fiance's folks place tonight, tomorrow night will be a late night at work, as I have to head into the city in the middle of the day to a food function thing, then I have Wednesday which will just be another busy day, followed by netball that night, feels like i havent played in forever! Thursday is more training in the city, as is Friday, however I am not coming home Friday, because it is Netball Trip!!! Woohoo!!

Bit sad that it means I will miss the local grand final, but hopefully we will set up in a bar on Saturday night to watch my boys play the coasters. Then back on Sunday for a friends 21st....geez I am going be screwed, lucky I have decided to take Monday off hey?

So I think it will be Tuesday before I know it, and wouldn't you know it, Im off to the city for training again, crazy I know! so pretty much only 3 day working weeks this and next week woohoo! Well not really cos I will probably be really far behind!

So again wedding plans are pretty much on hold, just a little longer anyways...

199

Well today marks 199 days to the wedding, yippee!!! I can't wait, I just want to enjoy the day. Feeling a lot happier and brighter today too which is good, thanks to a few friends for helping to cheer me up. How cool is the drawing above??? One of my friends drew this for me to cheer me up, and its safe to say it worked!!

So tonight when I get home I am going to tackle my ATO bits and peices, I won't get a tax return now, but why would I expect the government to want to help me with anything? But thats OK, Then I am going to work out how to budget to pay for the house insurance and car registration. Have a few more weeks for the rego anyways, so hopefully I can win the tattslotto or something between now and then (not that I have ever actually bought a ticket).

I must say I started reading this "50 shades of grey" book on Monday, and finished it this morning, yes I am a quick reader when I want to be. Was different to what I expected, very very out there when it comes to the sexier areas anyways to say the least, but I have enjoyed reading it, it has offered somewhat of an escape from how I have been feeling. Has anyone else checked it out? Im going to start book 2 tonight, reckon I'll finish it by Friday haha?

Anyways I am looking forward to the weekend, going to hopefully head to the netball and watch C grade, then I am going to catch up with one of my besties, haven't seen him in ages, so cant wait for that! Then Sunday some house cleaning and I swear I am going to start the place cards for the wedding! I know, I know I have been saying this for weeks now!!

Feels like Friday

Well we are only two days into the working week and I am already exhausted. I don't think it is a physical exhaustion, because I have been getting 8 hours of sleep a night, which is great for me, because the last few weeks before that I had been struggling to sleep at all. I think its a mental exhaustion I am suffering from at the moment.

Anyways lets start on some positives, my cousin came through the surgery OK, still waiting on further details, but happy he got through it, because there were a number of risks involved. So once again I can breath easy on that front, but its a fear that doesn't go away really. Other than that work is really good, really busy but I am absolutely loving what I am doing, which is actually probably a first for me...usually I dont particularly like the jobs I do haha.

Wedding planning, well I haven't done any for a while, on a bit of a standstill while I work out my tax stuff and get all our major bills paid off. Then I will look at ordering the invites, pretty much thats the only thing I can do now, I think I will also send off our music play list to our DJ incase he has any suggestions on what we have selected. As I figure he will know whats best when it comes to ordering of songs and things like that.

I am pretty happy that this week is a pretty quiet one, and other than work I don't have a lot on. This weekend I am catching up with some friends on Saturday and I would say that would be it, need to conserve my energy for the following weekend! Netball Trip!!!

When does it stop?

I am starting to believe the answer to this is never. I think being an adult means having to find the best way to deal with the one thing after another...and usually this is "one shit thing after another". Sometimes I think maybe I am too young to be putting myself under all this pressure? I have friends who go out and party all weekend, spend their money on clothes and fun things. Yet here I am sitting in my career oriented job, trying to work out how to save for a wedding, pay off a mortgage, which comes with rates and insurances, car registrationg and deal with the ATO who won't get off my back?

Sometimes I just don't know if it was worth going to university. I garuntee majority of people who didn't earn just as much or more than me, and dont have a $24k HECs debt that they have to pay off. I don't regret doing my degrees, I learnt a lot of valuable lessons and life skills, but I do often wonder, what was the point?

A friend told me the other day, that she believes that life won't through anything at you that you can not handle, but this past week has been incredibly tough, especially because as I write this very blog, my cousin, a young intelligent fantastic guy, is going through what seems his millionth surgery to save him from the cancer that continues to rage his body. And I guess I don't get how its fair. When will life throw something fun my way? Yes I do fun things, but usually I can't enjoy them to the full extent, because I can't afford to have a drink, or the food options has lactose in it, or someone will get jealous or angry at me. Well thats how it feels to me at the moment anyways, and its just too much.

I try to focus on the good, like planning the wedding, and then I think, how am I meant to pay for this? I don't want to get a loan, I dont think thats a good way to start a marriage... Then I try and focus on having a house, something I wanted for so long, and even though I love it, sometimes I think, if I didnt have to pay this bill, I could go out for dinner tonight, or if the house insurance weren't due, I would be able to see my favourite team in the world play a qualifying final. I have never missed a Collingwood qualifying final (not when they have been in melbourne) ever! So I am a little disappointed that I can't make it to the G on Friday night.

I love that I am marrying the man of my dreams, I love my house and my car too and I actually wouldn't change them for anything, sometimes I would just like to be a kid again....