Countdown

Sunday, 23 September 2012

6 months to go....

Sooooo there is only 6 months to go now, seriously where does the time go? Not that I am complaining, because I can't wait to be married!!!! So whats been going on? I have been on heaps more training days for work, netball trip has been and gone, been working hard, helped a friend address her wedding invitations today!!! Not long for her big day now!!!

Well I haven't posted for a few days, or probably even over a week now!! As far as being healthier is concerned I am doing a bit better, except for having a stupid cold. I am maintaining my reduced weight, but wouldn't mind losing a few more kilo's. So what are my rules? I have cut out chocolate which was biggest vice, I'd eat about 3 blocks a week...and I am not eating after 8pm, I am trying to be in bed by 9pm, and trying to go for walks when the weather and time permits.

So whats the go for this week! I have to get stuck into my internal audit at work, Going to be a massive job! A friend of mine is booked in to have her baby, which is pretty dam exciting! Then next weekend is GRAND FINAL!!!! I love grand final, and even though my amazing boys didnt quite make it this year, it will be nice to enjoy the week and not be stressing about it the whole time, so my favourite week of the year is about to begin, with tomorrow night with brownlow night!!! Then after grand final, I am spoiling the fiance for his bday and then sunday is presentation day, and I get my trophy for runners-up best and fairest! I've never had a trophy before, so I am pretty excited!

Then somehow its October!!!!! Kicking it off with Kelly Clarkson concert woohoo!!!Then I start my second job at the end of the week! Hopefully it will all work out and some extra money will do the trick with the wedding!!! Then I have my hens day at the races which I am really looking forward too, Then I can finalise the guest list and order the invitations!!!

Monday, 10 September 2012

September!

I love September, the weather starts to improve, we get that little glimpse of hope that summer is coming, I dont know if its just me but I am over being cold. I also love that September brings netball and footy finals, nothing better than seeing your team, or any team for that matter achieving there dreams.

Anyways so as you can probably tell after the weekend I am feeling a lot better, I have put all the crap behind me and I am moving forward! I think this week is going to move forward pretty quickly too, Dinner at the fiance's folks place tonight, tomorrow night will be a late night at work, as I have to head into the city in the middle of the day to a food function thing, then I have Wednesday which will just be another busy day, followed by netball that night, feels like i havent played in forever! Thursday is more training in the city, as is Friday, however I am not coming home Friday, because it is Netball Trip!!! Woohoo!!

Bit sad that it means I will miss the local grand final, but hopefully we will set up in a bar on Saturday night to watch my boys play the coasters. Then back on Sunday for a friends 21st....geez I am going be screwed, lucky I have decided to take Monday off hey?

So I think it will be Tuesday before I know it, and wouldn't you know it, Im off to the city for training again, crazy I know! so pretty much only 3 day working weeks this and next week woohoo! Well not really cos I will probably be really far behind!

So again wedding plans are pretty much on hold, just a little longer anyways...

Wednesday, 5 September 2012

199

Well today marks 199 days to the wedding, yippee!!! I can't wait, I just want to enjoy the day. Feeling a lot happier and brighter today too which is good, thanks to a few friends for helping to cheer me up. How cool is the drawing above??? One of my friends drew this for me to cheer me up, and its safe to say it worked!!

So tonight when I get home I am going to tackle my ATO bits and peices, I won't get a tax return now, but why would I expect the government to want to help me with anything? But thats OK, Then I am going to work out how to budget to pay for the house insurance and car registration. Have a few more weeks for the rego anyways, so hopefully I can win the tattslotto or something between now and then (not that I have ever actually bought a ticket).

I must say I started reading this "50 shades of grey" book on Monday, and finished it this morning, yes I am a quick reader when I want to be. Was different to what I expected, very very out there when it comes to the sexier areas anyways to say the least, but I have enjoyed reading it, it has offered somewhat of an escape from how I have been feeling. Has anyone else checked it out? Im going to start book 2 tonight, reckon I'll finish it by Friday haha?

Anyways I am looking forward to the weekend, going to hopefully head to the netball and watch C grade, then I am going to catch up with one of my besties, haven't seen him in ages, so cant wait for that! Then Sunday some house cleaning and I swear I am going to start the place cards for the wedding! I know, I know I have been saying this for weeks now!!

Tuesday, 4 September 2012

Feels like Friday

Well we are only two days into the working week and I am already exhausted. I don't think it is a physical exhaustion, because I have been getting 8 hours of sleep a night, which is great for me, because the last few weeks before that I had been struggling to sleep at all. I think its a mental exhaustion I am suffering from at the moment.

Anyways lets start on some positives, my cousin came through the surgery OK, still waiting on further details, but happy he got through it, because there were a number of risks involved. So once again I can breath easy on that front, but its a fear that doesn't go away really. Other than that work is really good, really busy but I am absolutely loving what I am doing, which is actually probably a first for me...usually I dont particularly like the jobs I do haha.

Wedding planning, well I haven't done any for a while, on a bit of a standstill while I work out my tax stuff and get all our major bills paid off. Then I will look at ordering the invites, pretty much thats the only thing I can do now, I think I will also send off our music play list to our DJ incase he has any suggestions on what we have selected. As I figure he will know whats best when it comes to ordering of songs and things like that.

I am pretty happy that this week is a pretty quiet one, and other than work I don't have a lot on. This weekend I am catching up with some friends on Saturday and I would say that would be it, need to conserve my energy for the following weekend! Netball Trip!!!

Monday, 3 September 2012

When does it stop?

I am starting to believe the answer to this is never. I think being an adult means having to find the best way to deal with the one thing after another...and usually this is "one shit thing after another". Sometimes I think maybe I am too young to be putting myself under all this pressure? I have friends who go out and party all weekend, spend their money on clothes and fun things. Yet here I am sitting in my career oriented job, trying to work out how to save for a wedding, pay off a mortgage, which comes with rates and insurances, car registrationg and deal with the ATO who won't get off my back?

Sometimes I just don't know if it was worth going to university. I garuntee majority of people who didn't earn just as much or more than me, and dont have a $24k HECs debt that they have to pay off. I don't regret doing my degrees, I learnt a lot of valuable lessons and life skills, but I do often wonder, what was the point?

A friend told me the other day, that she believes that life won't through anything at you that you can not handle, but this past week has been incredibly tough, especially because as I write this very blog, my cousin, a young intelligent fantastic guy, is going through what seems his millionth surgery to save him from the cancer that continues to rage his body. And I guess I don't get how its fair. When will life throw something fun my way? Yes I do fun things, but usually I can't enjoy them to the full extent, because I can't afford to have a drink, or the food options has lactose in it, or someone will get jealous or angry at me. Well thats how it feels to me at the moment anyways, and its just too much.

I try to focus on the good, like planning the wedding, and then I think, how am I meant to pay for this? I don't want to get a loan, I dont think thats a good way to start a marriage... Then I try and focus on having a house, something I wanted for so long, and even though I love it, sometimes I think, if I didnt have to pay this bill, I could go out for dinner tonight, or if the house insurance weren't due, I would be able to see my favourite team in the world play a qualifying final. I have never missed a Collingwood qualifying final (not when they have been in melbourne) ever! So I am a little disappointed that I can't make it to the G on Friday night.

I love that I am marrying the man of my dreams, I love my house and my car too and I actually wouldn't change them for anything, sometimes I would just like to be a kid again....

Sunday, 2 September 2012

Sunday!

Wow well what a day!!! or Weekend, or maybe I should say week? Well the last time I posted it was Monday, so what has been happening since then? A fair bit of exhaustion when it comes to work, have been working my butt off trying to get everything caught back up to where things should be, as things were pretty far behind when I started.

Wednesday I got to go to w work function, free three course meal and also free wine, some very interesting topics as well. It was a really enjoyable night, and a good chance to get out of the house after not such a great week.

Then came Thursday and again it was work work work, was pretty tired after getting home quite late after the work function, but I got to leave early to get my hair done, so the day didn't seem to drag too much. Then it was Friday! and I must say I was ready for it to be Friday, got a fair bit of work done, but come the evening, all I wanted to do was go to bed,

Saturday morning rolled around and Daz and I wen't shopping, for silly presents mostly for his friends 25th birthday, we had a blast getting it ready and then we headed out to the hills for a lunch and drinks in the arvo for the party. Then came home and watched pies play bombers, and thankfully we won, meaning we got the top 4 stop.

And today its Sunday, Fathers day too! I got up pretty early and started cleaning the house, dishes, vacuuming, washing, toilets and bathrooms...such fun haha, Took dad his pressie and managed to sneak in a walk and also some hanging out in the sun which was lovely. Finally now I have set myself up on the couch watching Glee and eating chocolate, and boy do I need it!

This has been an extremely hard week, trying to get everything sorted for the bloody ATO has been a nightmare, and very humiliating, to have to ask previous employers for those details also, particularly ones I dont ever want to remember working for, but I feel I have come out on Sunday feeling a bit better. Some time to myself today has been great and something I really needed.

Anyways so whats the go for the next week? Tomorrow night I get to have a massage which will hopefully mean I am able to move my neck again, and hopefully he can work on my tummy as well so I can eat without feeling sick. Tuesday night I am going to go for a walk, and do some wedding planning too, Wednesday and Thursday night I think I'll do the same, Friday I will be watching the qualifying final between the pies and the hawks, although I dont think I will enjoy the game too much. Saturday I am off to the city to catch up with some old work friends, and hopefully have a quiet Saturday night and Sunday, because I am desperate for a break, hopefully I will finally be able to get more of the guest list and place cards ready!

As for my weigh in, I am at the same as last time which I am happy with, as my dress fits perfectly!

Enjoy the rest of your weekend everyone