Interviews

Well today was the day for round one interviews for the dream! I think i did well but you can never be too sure! I have applied for the many jobs in the last 15 months its ridiculous, and only very few do you get through to the interview stage... so heres hoping! Here is also to hoping that the next 7 days fly by because I am impatient and I want to know if I made it through to the second round.

Other than the interview, today has been pretty cruisy, which I am happy about because quite simply I am exhausted! All the worries about money, jobs and weddings is sure tiring and I am happy to have a break this afternoon to watch the second last episode ever of One Tree Hill (my favourite show in the entire world).

I went and paid some money off my dress again today, its been ordered and I am so excited!! Tomorrow is the day for finalizing the cake so by this time tomorrow I should have a fair idea of what our cake will look like! Yay Yay!!!

Anyways I apolygise for the short one but I need a lie down! Have a great day all xx

The Dress

I have ordered my wedding dress!! Surprisingly its not the dress I always thought I would be walking down the aisle in. But I am in love with it! I felt like such a princess! The deposit is down and the dress is ordered! So hopefully by the end of September the dress will be hanging in my closet! Yay!!! So next on the to do list is the bridesmaid dresses for the ladies!
I have also organised a catch up with the entire bridal party, so that we can organise times for fittings, rehearsals, aand pretty much anything wedding related! After that I think the only thing left to worry about will be paying everything off.

Friday I am meeting with my cake maker to finalise all wedding cake details and also paying the deposit on that one, so things are really beginning to come together, with on 367 days to go! Things are getting far to exciting!

At the moment my main focus is on Netball! I am playing my first official season ever and we have our practice match this weekend and our first game the following week, I am so excited to learn so much more about the game, I have already met some great people and it gives me a great excuse to catch up with some pretty awesome friends!

Lastly on my mind for today is tomorrow, I have a job interview, D Day is fast approaching, the day I have been waiting for since December 19th. That I have a chance at getting one of two full time jobs, hopefully I will get one of them, and then my life can settle down again, I must say I do love the money of shift work, but sometimes working 12 hours day and night gets tough, definitely not as tough as my Kidspot days, I will take working 12 hour night shifts over that any day! But the optimum dream is to be the lab team leader at Lion! So lets see how the next week pans out and if dreams really can come true.

So yesterday!

There are so many things in life you can't control, but then again there are so many things that you can. Yesterday would have marked my 1 year anniversary at Kidspot had I stayed on. I couldn't control how I was treated there, but I could control whether I worked there or not. Some people may say I was weak for leaving a job after 9 months, some could say i couldn't handle the pressure, but I don't think that's true. I believe that I was strong to decide to leave a place where I wasn't treated with the respect i deserve, where my personal values were not upheld, know this now, even 4 months on and I still don't have a secure full time job but I am back, my confidence is back, I am happy again and I feel like I am ready to take on the world again!

Other things you cant control are peoples actions and reactions. I have always treated friends and even people I dont know with respect, I'm not a nasty person and if i choose not to associate with people, I won't do it in a bitchy manner,however at the moment I feel like I am being punished by a so called friend because I am happy. And for the last couple weeks this has really upset me, made me feel so unwell that I couldnt eat...another 3kG lost (but not for good reason). So I am going to take my Kidspot approach to this one! I have so many friends that would be happy and proud of me and where my life is at at the moment and to them I say thank you and I love you all, because there is no point being around unhappy people, misery does love company and I don't need anyone bringing me down. 2011 was a difficult year for me and 2012 is not going to be the same!

I am happy! Darren and my wedding is just over a year away now! This weekend I am off to buy my wedding dress, or order it or however you want to say it. Yesterday I brought my shoes online! I hope they are as cute in real life as they are in the picture, but for $100 saving, I think that t'll be worth it! Tomorrow two of my bridesmaids and other close friends are coming with me, hopefully I will find a matching headband, im strangely considering veil now too?, and possible necklace for the big day! I am also getting my lovely bridesmaids to try on option two of the bridesmaid dress, after tomorrow we should know which dress they will be wearing!!!

After tomorrow most of the main stuff will be planned. Then its just getting down to the nitty gritty! Which is actually good! Because I think November to March is gonna be insanely hectic but for great reasons! Two of my bridesmaids are also getting married in this time! Both of which I get to be a part of and I cant wait!!! To see two of my closest friends walk down the aisle so close to me just makes this time so special. We are all feeling the same way, we are all going through the same thing and its makin us even closer and I love it!

So I guess what I am trying to say with this post is that there is no point living in the past, because you can only control what you can, so for me I am living in the future! I am looking forward to it and everything that it will bring!

I have found my wedding dress!

Yesterday was the day! I have found my wedding dress! The surprising thing is, that no one had seen this one, not even me before I tried it, yet its the one I love. So I will be trekking back next weekend to put down my deposit! Hopefully find some shoes and bridesmaid dresses also!

But never the less! The major stuff has now been organised! Ceremeony venue...check, Reception venue...check, Celibrant....check, DJ...check, cake maker...check, cars...check, photographer...check, florist...check, invitational artist...check, hairdresses....check, guestlist finalised...check, DRESS!!....check!

So whats next? I have to find gorgeous dresses for my amazing 3 bridesmaids still, I have to begin writing down the songs I would like played during the ceremony and recpetion, I have to find the chocolate fountain for my candy bar, but I have purchased all the jars now! Then its the accessories, the shoes, the clutches, the jewelery!

There is just over a year to go, and I must say, I am getting more and more excited by the day :)

As time goes by..

Firstly I must apolygise becuase its been a long time inbetween posts! But sometimes life takes you to places that you didn't expect and somehow my favourite part of the day wasn't writing my blog, but it was going to bed (and yes I mean to sleep!).

Sooo Im no longer doing night shifts, but still working casually in the hope of being given a full time job in the next few weeks, as well as this there has been a holiday to Perth to visit one of my super special bridesmaids, and lastly I have been planning so much wedding stuff that my head was beginning to spin off into another dimension.

So since my last post I also turned 23, What a horrible age haha! Im starting to feel old and that maybe I should have more career direction by now? but I am getting married so I think thats mature enough for just now!

Perth was amazing! One of the most beautiful cities I have ever seen (not that I have seen that many), gorgeous beaches, a laid back lifestyle, fantastic company, throw in some wedding dress shopping and life was sweet.

Since being back from my holiday, just one week...so much has happened. I have booked my wedding cake and wedding cars, I have finalized my guest list, and started choosing wedding songs. I have also started up netball and I am starting to feel more fit.

However it hasnt all been shits and giggles. One of my closest friends this week told me that they no longer wanted any part in our friendship, it wasn't bitchy, it was honesty, but I have been left questioning myself as a person. I have always believed myself to be a good person and a good friend, and the thought that someone could walk away from me is both upsetting and disappointing. Its life, people change and things happen, but I cant put a finger on this one.

Its time to move on from this now, because life simply is worth being sad and people will always come and go, whether the circumstances are good or bad. The one thing that did snap me out of my funk was KONY 2012. These kids have gone through more than most peoples worst imaginable nightmare. Take the 30 minutes to watch their movie, it may cost you time today, but you will have a new perspective on life afterwards...and no matter how bad things get, someone is always worse off than what I am.

I was lucky enough to be born into a democratic country where I was able to have a childhood and a tertiary education, I am lucky enough to have amazing friends and family who I know truly will be there for me thick and thin, I am lucky to have versatility in my career choices, I am happy to say I am a homeowner with the most amazing person my fiancee.

So when you do have a bad day, or something doesn't go your way, take a deep breath and dont worry about what you dont have but appreciate what you do have, because thats the key to happiness.

Every Day and Night!

Sorry for the delay in posting! I started my new job officially yesterday and had a 12 hour day shift, so by the time I was home and had tea I pretty much couldn't be bothered using my brain anymore for anything...so because of that, I am finally posting now inbetween sleeps, as tonight I have a 12 hour night shift, yay for me haha, now I actually dont mind night shifts, but the first one back is also a struggle, so hopefully I can get back to sleep for about 3 hours before getting ready.

Im a bit disppointed that tonight is also the first official netball training for the season and I cant make it, but in a few weeks time I dont think anyone will be able to drag me away from it. I am so excited to be apart of a team, play with friends and hopefully make new friends and get fit along the way.

As for the wedding, I will be putting the deposit on the photographer this week, as well as confirming the DJ. And then in a couple weeks I will be off to try on the dream dress again and probably in a month or so be putting on the deposit on the dress that I choose!

My maid of honour has been the best help ever, coming to every expo, providing me with millions of mags and helping me when i start to freak out about things! So to her I say a big thank you and i know I definitely made the right choice in choosing her.

So for now I am gonna head back to sleep! have a great night everyone!

Living the life!

So I have gone from not having any time to myself! To having plenty which I must say is very nice! Having the time to just sit down and let myself relax was overdue. It also given me time to think things through a lot.

We have decided to post-pone the honeymoon for now. Financially we believe that we wouldnt be able to do as much as we would have liked for both the wedding and a massive America trip. The pluses are we will be able to invite a few more people to the wedding that we would really like to have there. It also means we get to have a nice aussie honeymoon, possibly Cairns, Port Douglas, Hayman Island...somewhere tropical. It also means we have plenty of time to save for the real trip to Americia and do everything that we would love to do.

Had my induction back yesterday and all went well and it was great to be back at National Foods, back with the team and start to get my head back in the scientific game! I am really excited to get stuck back into things on Monday and really get a feel for my old role.

So wedding wise, It means we may be able to up the guest list a little and hopefully enjoy the day rather than stressing about money!

In the mean time operation size 8 is in full swing, my arms are killing from going to the gym 3 days straight! I am still 4kg down and sticking to my calorie intake as much as possible!